Wednesday, August 3, 2011

"P" is for pills

Jenny Matlock

So as I do care and maintenance with true conviction
I ask myself if these pills are my new addiction
Is it it wrong that I follow doctors orders with dedication
if I fear a dependency on their very medication

I don't want to cure one to contract a new disease
especially one that brings me to bagging on my knees
for one more round of pain medication
to dull the common sense of my street education

That screams at my soul that I've become addicted
to the pills that come from prescriptions
from the people who are only trying to help me through
if only if only they knew the awful truth

That my body may be hard wired to addictions
from all drugs and not just prescriptions
that the solutions may be the problems
and all the meds in the world won't solve them

I pray to God each and everyday
that the doctors may find another drug free way
to keep the monster at bay and me disease free
without the need for chemical dependency

I know they know what they're doing and in them I trust
for I am a novice to disease control and I simply must
go with what they say with unimpeded dedication
and continue to take my daily medication.


  1. It's darned if you do and darned it you don't. Not a great choice, but you do what you have to do and hope and pray for the best.

  2. You know you best so if you feel any one drug is a problem then you need to speak up to the Doc's to express that concern...

  3. It is so hard when you end up with drugs to help drugs.

  4. You raise a question here that many of us think about: wouldn't it be nice if medicine cured rather than medicated?
    I so enjoy your clever turn of words.

  5. I am a die hard dr. avoider and part of the reason is that I don't want to have a whole little line of pill bottles on my bathroom sink! The older I get, the more I realize that I will have to give in at some point and start medicating these old bones and joints, but I am really trying to put it off as long as I can!

  6. It's a fine line sometimes, isn't it? I enjoyed your poem and the thoughts expressed there.


  7. And there's the rub! Very heartfelt poem. Hope you can find the peace that passes all understanding.

  8. Drugs. Addiction or cure? If it weren't for the drugs my husband takes, he would have been gone from here 11 years ago.~Ames

  9. Great post :)

  10. Oh. I know this worry. It is so hard to manage pain when you feel the pull of the medications.

    When I need to take pain pills, I give the prescription to my husband. He doles them out like I am a child...but they grab me so quickly that I am afraid otherwise.

    Good luck with this.

    I believe in your strength, though!

    Thanks for sharing your heart here.